YOU....2024

At times I wondered if you will ever stop

If you will ever give me time to breathe before the next wave hits

At times there was no air to breathe, no breath to take.

No lungs, no air, no escape.

Each one is hard, but you, you took the win

Never allowing me to adjust or even come up for air

I couldn’t decide if it was pitch dark or too bright

I couldn’t come up. I couldn’t understand

I suffocated in self-doubt, defeated I just looked down

My body too broken

My mind too overwhelmed

I create them myself, time and time again

But you gave me reason too.

My back broken, my knees numb.

My confidence absent.

Lessons learnt is one thing, but you,

you taught me something completely different.

Your lessons were hard, constant, tiring

Brutal

Deep

Your lessons were fought alone and your scars can still

Be seen

The goodness was clouded, the adventures

The rivers crossed, the mountains conquerd.

All clouded, blurred

Never happened

Have you changed me completely, ruined me

Have you broken me, or was the push just hard enough

that it will take me a while to stand up

But I will stand up.

How do you know, how can you.  You will stay behind

Left aside, your damage done, and gone you are.

How will you know.

You

The one who came, burned down everything

And left again

Have you given hope, ignited passion or

broke down walls?

Only time will tell.