LEARN TO DANCE IN THE RAIN

I am the youngest of two daughters. My sister is 13 years older than me, so its not as if we grew up together. I can vaguely remember still how I would irritate and annoy her, when all I wanted to do was play.

I don't really remember growing up together. Most of my childhood memories are without a sibling, basically just me. An only child.

I've spent most of my time and days alone, in my own thoughts doing my own thing. Staying on a farm, I played outside a lot, had imaginary friends and created worlds and spaces in my head where only I could go.....fairytales.

I've grown up to be sensitive and very much aware of who I am and the environment I find myself in. I grew up feeling people around me, feeling their emotions and seeing what they are experiencing without speaking a word to them.

I grew up being sensitive toward others, touching lives with love and empathy. I had a love and a forgiveness inside of me that I very quickly realised was not like any other I have seen before, my secret weapon but also my biggest sorrow.

My parents were farmers, they knew how to work and give with everything inside of them, and they didn't really teach us anything less. I learned to love hard and give hard, it resulted in me trusting and believing in people that didn't deserve my love at all.

Life wasn't always fair or easy or simple but it never stoped me from loving and embracing every moment of it. I enjoyed life.

I was very adventurous and had lots of energy as a young girl, I enjoyed being busy and having fun, life with all its curveballs could never get me down.

My life an a young adult didn't really testify of anything different and through all the bliss and beauty I was constantly faced with several mountains I had to overcome.

I've alway wanted to share my life, my experience and hardships. I've always wanted to give hope and help others to see that there is indeed a way out. I've always believed that my mountains weren't for nothing, that the hardships and challenges were clearly there to share and bring hope. I have also believed that nothing life throws at me can rattle me anymore, I was wrong... (M)

Three years ago I was levelled by this thing we call life, it has made me humble maybe even defeated. I have reached a place in my life where I have lost so much, and I am at the point where I will certainly lose some more.

I've created this blog to share my thoughts, my experience, my battles, my beauties and my bliss. I want to use this not just as a platform to share and give hope to others but also to myself....I want this to teach me to again see the goodness, the sunshine, the wonder.

I want this to teach me and others how not to cry in the storm, but dance in the rain.