WHAT WILL I KEEP, AND WHAT WILL I HAVE TO GIVE AWAY.

Travel they say, visit places and enjoy where life takes you they say. And yes, all of these are absolutely valid until you find yourself in a really good spot and then life wants you to move.

One of my many mountains I had to face these past few months. Initially it threw me, and I found myself crying most of the time just thinking about it. But it’s like you dry up, not from the tears but from fighting. You stop fighting.....

New York City

I enjoy my life, where I am, I am happy! I didn't want to go and I didn't understand why life wanted me to. It was such a wonderful opportunity for my husband but it felt like a curse to me. I have my two furry babies that are like my children, they have shared every moment and created most of the good ones in the past eleven years, they were getting old, blind and deaf. What will life allow me to do, take them with?

My parents just relocated to be close to me after my mom got diagnosed with colorectal cancer a few years back. Time with them is so short. What if I miss every second of what is left. What will life allow me to do, miss my last few years with them?

They say maybe life has something better for us, what can possibly be better? I struggle to understand. I am happy where I am, where we stay, our friends and family, my Jiu jitsu journey and the people I share it with. But I am happy.

Will life take away my happy, to replace it with more happy? I have dried up, given up, surrendered.

Luckily we were given the opportunity to visit and decide if the United States is a place we see ourselves living in, Hoyt Lakes Minnesota to be specific.

I see this as a journey, an exciting scary one. A journey I will take you on, a journey I will journal and share with you. It kicks off on the 3rd of September 2024, a direct flight to New York (my longest ever). Next stop will be Minneapolis and then the long drive to Hoyt Lakes, Hibbing, Virginia, Babbitt, Duluth and then back to Minneapolis, New York, then Home.

My heart is happy and heavy all at the same time. I am excited and scared. Where and what will life allow me to do and keep and what will I have to give away?